I don't know what has come over me the past week......but I'm beginning to get bitter.....
My sister is PG....I think around 9 weeks or so. Now this morning-a good friend of mine told me she's PG. So far up until now-I've always been happy for people when I find out-but the last week its just made me sooooo bitter. WHY ISN"T IT ME!!! DON'T I DESERVE TO BE A MOM TO!!!
I'm happy for them-but sad for me. And I don't know how to handle that. I don't want to be sad for me. I want to be excited about our future together and excited about what our life will be like over the next few years....but on days like today when feel so doubtful about whether or not my future holds a baby-its so hard to be excited.....so so hard.
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