Overwhelmed with Emotions...

Ugh! That's how I feel today....plain and simple...UGH! I had a good weekend. One of relaxation, some cleaning, and some time with great friends.

Last night however, reality set in...and I realized this week was going to be stressful and overwhelming.

Tomorrow is our first homestudy. And suprisingly I'm not at all nervous about that. I actually feel totally calm and collected about that. Which is a BIG surprise. Typically I'm one who freaks out and stresses about that kind of thing. So the fact that I'm not-is a pleasant surprise.

However, the end of the week is a BIG HUGE ENORMOUS event of mine. One that I'm more nervous for than anything else I've done in a long time....My first Wedding. No-not my wedding-but a wedding that I'm shooting-meaning photography.

This is a subject that I haven't blogged much about-not really sure why-maybe because I've been so focused on the adoption...that I really haven't had a lot of time to think about it...but in reality-some of my personal goals, dreams, and ambitions in life are happening right in front of me and if I don't stop and enjoy them-they are going to pass me by. A little background....I've always LOVED photography. I was that girl who took pictures of everything-and I was THAT GIRL who always had a camera with at every event. As I got older, it just manifested into a glorified hobby. Than over time, people have been asking me to do their baby pictures, family photo's, pet's, some candid (behind the scenes) wedding photography. Well about 6 weeks ago I got a call from a coworker of my husband. Her daughter had just gotten engaged-and decided to do a wedding in a very short amount of time....meaning this weekend. (Man I give that girl credit. I had a hard enough time planning a wedding in a year-let alone 2 months!) She needed a photographer. My first response....kindly decline-and thank them for the offer-but....before I could even get those words out of my mouth-she said-she trusts me-and she knows this will be my first wedding, but she'd be honored if I would do it. Ugh...how could I say no! Than my next response-do it for free...than I will feel better. However, as I'm telling her how flattered I was that she would ask me-she tells me that she will pay me....she HAS TO...It's only right that someone gets paid for there job. So I told her-you give me what you think I'm worth....let me tell you-she must think I'm worth a heck of a lot of money! Cause I was floored when I got the first check that said 1 of 2 in the memo line.

About a week later-I get a phone call from an acquaintance. We worked together a few years ago-but I haven't talked to her since my wedding-cause her now fiance was a groomsmen....they are getting married in July-and asked if I would shoot there wedding as well....EEK! Are you serious?!?! So-I decided-I would do it. Than over the weekend while I was shooting a babies 6 month shots-the mom asked if I was available August 15th for her cousins wedding. She was having a heck of a time finding a photographer.....SERIOUSLY! WHERE DOES THIS KIND OF THING COME FROM!?!! I've always wanted to stay at home when we had kids...ALWAYS...Just never knew if it would be possible....I'm beginning to second guess those thoughts.....and I'm realizing more and more that God does provide...and that God does honor those wishes that are heavy on our hearts. So I have a lot of praising to do over the next few days as well as a lot of praying for guidance and strength to use the talents that he gave me to the best of my ability!

God is Good!