AND SHE SHOWS!!!

I knew she was coming-eventually-I just had a gut feeling.......

Yep....Still Waiting

I wish I wasn't such a chicken to test. I was going to last night when I got home from work-but we had company unexpectedly stop by so when Mike called and told me they were there, I didn't even stop to pick up HPT. I thought about going to get one last night-but then the cramps set in and the back pain so I figured FINALLY...she's here. I went to bed thinking she would be here in full force this morning....I wake up and low and behold-NOTHING!

I think today will be Test day.

Here's to hoping for POSITIVE results!!

Still Waiting....

I haven't tested again....I thought about testing last night-but something has me convinced that AF will show up one of these days-and I don't really want to see a BFN....again. I think I would rather see AF then a BFN.

Here's to another few days....I'm gonna have to break down and test one of these days.

AF is.......LATE!!!!!!!!

Go Figure! The time that I start thinking about when or when not to TTC-AF is a no show. She was due Saturday-I tested yesterday and got a BFN....I'll wait until later this week and test again if she hasn't showed yet.

I'm not really getting to excited about-although I want to more than anything-I'm not letting myself. It could be something as little as stress that has thrown off my cycle. Between moving and getting a new puppy-this month has been kinda crazy. I didn't temp....but according to CM..yes-there could be a chance that I'm PG.

I told DH-but like me-he said he doesn't want to get his hopes up to much. We've been here before and let down big time. We've learned to take control of our emotions....as hard as that is to do.

So here's to a few days of waiting-hopefully by the end of the week-I'll have an answer either way!

Looking for a change

I made a few changes to the blog....thought I could use a change these days-sometimes its the little things that matter. :)

To TTC or To Not "TRY" to Conceive

That question has been battling back back and forth in my mind for quite some time now. Over the last few months Mike and I have not been "trying" but rather just letting things happen. I think he knew that I was just getting emotionally drained with the issue and just kind of let it drop for a bit.

Over the last few weeks or so I've been asking myself when would be the right time to start trying again? I know people say-if you have to think about that-you're not ready. It's not that we're not ready-because we are...we are very ready to have kids....I'm just not ready to start going through the emotional draining thoughts of TRYING to get pregnant all over again. I know it's all part of the baby process-but really-why didn't anyone ever tell me/us that you could struggle to get pregnant? That it might not just happen the first few months you try? Rather it could take months and months and months to get pregnant? Why was all of this information left out when people talk about getting pregnant? All you ever hear about is...yea we weren't trying...and oops-guess we're having another one! WHY!!!????

Thinking about all of this just drains me emotionally-but I know that it is something that I/we need to come to terms with. Mike really tries to understand-but really no man can FULLY understand what it is like to be a woman and to want to get pregnant and feel responsible every month when AF shows and you have to tell him that once again you're not pregnant. NO MAN CAN REALLY TRULY UNDERSTAND THAT!! Mike is 100% supportive of me-and he tries to understand the emotional rollercoaster that this can cause me to go on-but I really don't think he can really truly understand. I wish there was a book on-how to support your wife when TTC? :) Maybe I should write one....it's a thought.

We're Moved!

After long weeks of packing we're finally moved! The house is good....it's so nice to have the privacy of a house. After living in an apt for years-this is so different-but such a good different. Daisy-our 9 week old Black Lab arrived about a week earlier then planned. Orginally we were not going to get her until we were moved and settled. Well....the breeder contacted me and told me she would be able to get her to us last weekend. So we met half way and I picked her up. She's truly a doll. We love her!!! I do miss getting a full 8 hours of sleep a night-but I guess it gives us practice for children one day. :) All in good time. The puppy is keeping us busy right now. As thrilled as I would be to get pregnant....I can't imagine having a baby and a puppy. :)