Sunday, February 10, 2008

Infertility....What does it really mean.....

When Mike and I first got married we waited a few months-and then started trying to get pregnant. It didn't happen right away. I didn't think much of it-figured it was timing-etc. After a few more months-it really started make me think and wonder-maybe something is wrong. I went to my dr. for my annual and she said not to worry-it will happen eventually and she could find nothing wrong with me-to prevent me from getting pregnant.

As time went on-Mike and I continued temping. I knew I was ovulating..and I knew we were timing everything just right. As time went on we stopped temping. It became emotionally difficult to keep trying. I decided to use OPKs instead. That to me seemed easier. But yet still we couldn't get pregnant.

Mike went to the dr. for a full checkup. His dr. told him he was completely healthy. Nothing wrong. Mike expressed concern about me not getting pregnant. His dr. didn't want to do a SA yet. He wanted to wait a bit longer because of the fact that we hadn't been actually "trying" for as long as he felt we should be-before we did that. We've continued on our not trying but not preventing path for the last few months. I'm just starting a new job....we've moved, other things have come up-so we decided not to actively try-but most definitely not prevent.

Fast forward to 2 weeks ago. I went in for my next annual. My dr. tells me that even though we hadn't been trying-since we weren't preventing-and still not pregnant.....she was beginning to be concerned. She's referred me to a specialist for UNEXPLAINED INFERTILITY. When I read the referral form-I got sick to my stomach. It was a hard thing to read. What does that mean....unexplained infertility. I went home and showed it to Mike-he didn't really know what to say. I had a ton of bloodwork done since-nothing came back abnormal.

So where do we go from here? With my new job-came new insurance. I switched clinics to one that has a specialist. I'm hoping for answers....but now I'm absolutely terrified for what lies ahead-whatever they may be.

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