"So When Will You Two Have Kids?"

"WHEN MY SPERM MEETS HER EGG!"

That was Mike's response when someone asked him when we would have kids. I was floored but just smiled at the same time. They just smiled and walked away Some people just don't get how personal of a question that really is!

Another Baby Shower....yay!

Some people think I'm crazy-but I feel like I'm just being a good friend. Megan is due next month with baby number 1 and she is having a family shower next week and I asked her if she wouldn't mind if I did her friends shower. She of course was very excited about it-but asked if we could wait until after "baby" was born. She's due the end of July-so that gives me plenty of time to plan ahead for a VERY fun shower.

I did one for Danielle in May and it was really a lot of fun. So-why not do another one. I've always thought they were fun to do and a way to get creative with decorations and "baby foods." So we'll see! I've got a month to plan!

Baby blues....

I know...I know...we are supposed to be on a break...but that doesn't mean that I don't get depressed when I think about babies or I hear all about births and adoptions and all of that fun stuff.

One good friend is due any day....which I'm thrilled for her. She's terrified-but excited at the same time. Which and first time mom would be. Another good friend of mine is due next month-so her last month is just preparing for baby to come...and now today at work-I recieved and email from our presidents secretary saying a coworker adopted a beautiful baby girl. I'm thrilled for them-as they have struggled with IF for awhile and had a failed adoption attempt earlier this year. Although we are by no means close friends-I was thrilled for her when I read that email. The joy they must be feeling is I'm sure indescribeable. It makes me excited for the day that Mike and I bring home our baby....whether it be through adoption or from the hospital...I know I will love that baby with all my heart and soul. I just long for that little one so much. I can't wait to meet him or her. I wonder if they will have his eyes?

Medical Records...CHECK

I was thinking this morning about my appt with Dr. Z and realized that I forgot to call my old clinic to have all of my medical records sent over to the new place. So I called this morning and took care of that-hopefully he can get a good look at all of my previous testing before my appt-and who knows maybe it will be something very easily fixable that wasn't picked up on before....one can hope right???

On another note...I talked to "D" today. Hard to believe her due date is already THursday. She said she felt like it was going to be soon. Contractions started in the middle of the night and so has the nausea and vomiting. For her sake I hope its quick. I know she's nervous about it. But I'm going to be in the area on Friday-so I'm hoping I can see a baby while I'm there. Its going to be hard though I think. While I was talking to her I couldn't help but have a wave of envy sweep over me. I started to think about how there lives were going to change dramatically in the next few days. And how much anticipation they have to meet there little girl...and how badly I want that feeling. One day....one day I will have that feeling. Until then-I'll go on being happy for all the expectant moms in my life. It's not a hard job-but its one that has difficult moments. But I know they will be happy for me....so I can do nothing but the same for them.

More prayers

My Best Friend "E's" dad has cancer. Unfortunately its more advanced then they were expecting. He had surgery yesterday to remove all of his lymph nodes. Please continue to keep him and the family in your prayers. They need them!

So excited!!

I've been dabbling into photography more and more. I'm in my opinion by no means good at it. Some of my friends like my work-but I've got a LONG WAY TO GO before I really like my own work-but I'm my own worst critic. But I'm always asking my friends if I can photgraphy there baby or families...I've had a few people ask if I'll do the candid shots for there wedding-to which I reply: "I WOULD LOVE TO!" Well the other night 2 friends of mine asked me if I would photgraphy her kids and nephew next weekend and the other one wanted me to do her pregnancy photos and possibly a birthing session as well!!! I'm so excited!! I would love to be able to do that!!! To share such an emotional beautiful moment with them-and capture it for them the way that they would want it captured-is truly an honor!

Well...I DID IT....FINALLY!

I finally called the clinic yesterday and made an appt with Dr. Z. Unfortunately I can't get into see him until the beginning of July-but I think I'm ok with that....considering I'm a little nervous about the whole thing.

The pain was so awful this weekend that I honestly thought about driving myself to the ER. Eventually after a bit of walking and 2000 mg of ibuprofen it subsided. I was still sore later that night and the next day-but its a bit better now.

I think the thought of potentially getting a diagnosis scares me-but at the same time I would be very relieved. If I found out something is wrong-it will answer so many questions. Because I would rather have a cause for IF-so it could be treated (if it can be) then just unexplained. But I guess we will see. I've waited so long to do it....but when my regular dr. referred me to see a specialist I figured it was time-it just took some time for me to get the guts to call. So I called....and now-I wait.

Ugh...I HATE WAITING! Such is life....